Sin Yi

2012-01-28T01:06:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is over. [:

I did rest during the 4 days 3 nights.
But I didn't sleep well. Thank to my dad&bro. The two of them seriously need some sleeping position lesson. Both just keep squeezing toward my side. And I can totally fall off the bed. >.<

Fireworks was as great as last year. #ForeverNice
This year, sky lantern was also release. I didn't really get to release one under my hand. But yeah, I'm the one doing the filming.

I need to say I enjoy such occasions. Spending time with my cousins. Getting closer to them every meet up. Lesser awkward moment between us. Maybe because we are all grown up and able to accept one another better.

Yeah~ They are twin !! Both of them are madness cute ! BoyBoy is a very gentle boy. He talk really softly and sort of cry easily. HAHA. While GirlGirl is sort of opp. character of BoyBoy. GirlGirl is more active. And she got really a pair of beautiful big round eye. Whenever she want something, she will lower down her head and talk softly while she ask for it. We all did our best to reject her as she couldn't eat all the heaty food. #MadCuteness

Yeah~ The kids. Just like less than a quarter of kids in my family. And that Jiawei. LOL.

Now is the start of week 14. 2 more week for this sem. Year 2 will be ending soon. Year 3 will be here. I couldn't imagine that I'm gonna be a Year 3 student soon. I don't feel like one !
Things starting to get serious. I'm on a real fight for my future, for my life. Just endure over this year and life would be good.

P.S I'll be good.

SsinyiI

2012-01-21T02:48:00.001+08:00

Oh Yeah ~ Finally I reached the CNY's holiday. Assignment two came to an end. Although my code is not perfect but at least I got it done with Depit's help.
This holiday is like my most looking forward days~ Finally, I can have some sleep without waking up in the night thinking about the codes and stuff~

Don't know why but I seem very looking forward for this CNY holiday. Cant wait to go back Malaysia. :) Enjoy myself. Just spending days that you don't really have to think what you need to do next. Just go blank.

I would be spending 4 days 3 night in Malaysia. Going in on saturday. Still not sure if I'm going in the afternoon or night. :/ Anyway, I sure gonna enjoy myself.

Smile,
SsinyiI

2012-01-09T01:21:00.001+08:00

First Week of school ended !!!!! And of course first weekend of 2012 ended.
Before I even realize, this weekend is already passed.
This week been a real busy one for me. Yes, I didn't study much during this week but did do something.

From Thursday to Saturday, I have been like staying in this booth more than I staying on my bed. HAHA. 3D is not a bad choice, I guess. I did enjoyed using all the equipments. Like a boss ahh~ And ya, that the special 3D glasses.

And during saturday, I rushed down to Somerset to meet the sec.co. Watched The Darkest Hour. Hmmm... it can be more scary as the name given. Didn't go with the rest for supper. Mum still waiting for me. HAHA.

And sunday ~ went out with them to library to do all the codes. Fruitful day. I did my work quietly at one side horrr. HAHAHA.

And here the second week goes. :)

byebye.
Will blog again soon.

SsinyiI

2012-01-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

Welcome back to school.

Back to school on Tuesday. Web Application Development. I'm lost from this module since problem 10. Seriously, I'm so not coding type. Not my cup of tea.

Wednesday went to Field Trip to Nee Ang City. Walked around Orchard and take different photos. Is even more tiring than school days.

Thursday. Should be my off day. Why do I even got Thursday as my off day?? :((
I was back in school at 8.30am for the Open House. I was in the SOI's 3D booth. Overall, I guess we are quite slack. Just have to do simple setup and show the students about the 3D. But we really eat too late. I'm hungry ! And sleepy at time, especially when there's no 'customers'.

Tmr Friday. Last day of Open House for me. Woohoo. This week passed fast. That good. Simply mean 5 week left with 4 week. And 2 more week to CNY !! I cant wait to be back home[Malaysia]. I'm so gonna have again my power sleeping rest in Malaysia.

is 10:08. Time to sleep. Night.

SsinyiI

2012-01-02T04:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR. :)

2012 is here.

2011 is gone.

Okay, first question. How's my countdown??

Went to Gay's house to stay over. Ya, I know I said not staying over. But plan changed. Stay-ed instead. Quite a funny countdown. We don't really have the digital watch with us. So, we all beside the guys got excited when the clock show 2359. And after all the funny counting of the second, clock show 0000 !! HAPPY NEW YEAR! LOL.

And countdown, we went down to living. Catch a soccer match. Yar, I know is not what I will watch. I didn't watch finish that match. Didn't know who got that game. HAHA. So next is I'm playing monopoly deal with the guys and another side eavesdropping the conversation between Kaifeng and the girls. I can really multitask ah.

Up to the room with the monopoly team and sleepy team. We cant possibly play the monopoly deal for the whole night. So everyone down again for the Wii. Tennis is a nice game. I like it and now down with muscle ache.

For the very first time, I actually didn't get a place to sleep. I'm awake the whole night. Xinyi, Cheekuan and I just play Wii the whole night while Huimin and Calvin awake and half sleeping on the sofa.

And hey is morning, Breakfast by Gay's father. Thank lots.

And guess what?

Second question: How's 2012??

2012 not that good for me at the start. I guess I lost my bus card ! FREAKING SAD MAX. :((( I guess I dropped at his house. But Gay don't seem to find it. So where did I actually drop it?? HOLY !!! This is real bad. I haven told my mum about it. And how freaking am I going to tell my mother? It would be the second time if I got it lost again ! *fainting in process* I can really imagine my mum's reaction after she know the news.

So please let Gay find my card !!! PLEASE PLEASE !!

p.s 只要友情中出现多的，就不再是友情。

SsinyiI

2011-12-26T04:08:00.000+08:00

One week passed. Christmas passed.
I'm still not done with my designs and storyboard. I need to start real soon.

As for Christmas this year:
Went to Gay's house on Christmas Eve. :) Short meet up with sec friends. Not many came. Jocelyn Yow not even there. :/
Christmas head over to Xinyi's house. Went for KFC with her and Huimin[joined later].

Guess the most common topic for girls after a long meet up is 'BGR'.
Congrat for those that not ending 2011 single.
As for singles like me, just have to end this year alone~ HAHAHA. Sound sad, right?
Guess the time is not right, still...

Holiday seriously passing real fast. :/ I need a longer holiday.
I applied for IEP. [attachment]. If I got the attachment, that meant I wont be having any holiday. But I really feel like having holiday. But why would they even choose me to be attached to any company. Confidant is lacking on me.

This week please be slow and steady. I need to get a sketchbook. Or can I just use back my old one?? :/

‘从新开始’ 好像也变得有点难。
单方面的 ‘和好’ 好像还是比不了单方的‘倔强’。

SsinyiI

2011-12-17T00:03:00.001+08:00

Amanda going oversea. :)

So GIF from jos and me.

AMANDA BYE BYE ~~

2011-12-14T21:25:00.002+08:00

刚刚跟老弟吵架。为了买书的事。
事情发生的太快。就连我也忘了自己说了那些气话。好后悔。不应该吵架的。
原来就连我，他也打得的下手。原来我对他没什么大不了。原来‘姐姐’对他是那么的不重要。原来他真的不喜欢我。我真的很没用。
常常有人说我太爱我弟。可是我已经不知道怎么爱了。我做的每件事好像都没有在帮他。
我真的不知道这是大家所谓的‘变'? 还是我的‘宠坏’？
可是照我看，他也并不是这样的。他以前好好哦。弟弟好爱我。现在怎么好像是我不认识的人。
如果我没有退，他是不是真的会打我？
他不会吧。我没勇气想象。
如果他打我，我真的会。。。

他对妈说‘都听她的，她最好。’
这句话好伤。我真的不想做‘好的’。
是我让他这样的吗？我觉得他没有变。
只是想法多了。表达方式变了。可是我还是好痛哦。

我尝试冷静的说，可是对他只是我的伪装。
我真的好累。

我错了吧。弟弟还是弟弟的。

2011-12-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

Holiday IS HERE

in 3 days

Cant wait for holiday to be here. I wanna my sleep.

Nevertheless, I still need to do my sketches & skeleton for my PD. :/

At least I got some time to spare for myself and sleep. I shall try not to go out in any way. I must finish these 2 work before I can give myself a true rest.

Recently, I feel like spending more time with my family. Accompany my bro because he is having holiday now. He said that wanna go prawning on his birthday. He bring his friends, I bring my friends. But like awkward max ar? And I don't know who can I bring. LOL. Guess not much people can can ton over night. :/ Shall think about it again.

最近看了两部电影【那些年，我们追的女孩】和【一泡而红】。

两部都很好笑，特别是【那些年】。里面一些黄色幽默让每个人笑到肚子痛！哈哈哈！而【一泡而红】对我来说很有熟悉感。因为我本身是马来西亚人。两部的演员都演的很好。

【那些年】　能拥有共同的回忆，看你幸福的离去，我也能笑着的祝福你。

【一泡而红】　无论怎么了，你还是我生命最佳女主角。支持你所要的，陪伴你的追寻。

SsinyiI

2011-11-27T00:22:00.001+08:00

Another week passed. Biggest News this week would be Evaluation day for PHP. I'm trying not to be nervous. I guess I did my best.
I didn't even realize that I didn't do finish the login page. My codes actually allow everyone to log in. I forget to compare it with the result. Eventually, the question given by faci is for me to fix the problem.
I spent quite a long time inside trying to solve. Faci keeps coming toward me and say 'It is okay if you cant get it now. You can always email me your changed code and just explain in the email about the changes you did. But if you want to stay and try, you can do so.' I know faci doesn't want to stress me. But I want to show that I really did the codes myself.
After doing lots of changes to it and still couldn't make it, I was on the plan to give up and just leave the room. Decided to try to run the code the last time and like pray hard in my heart. I'm like saying in my heart that 'OH DEAR CODE, WORK FOR THE GOD'S SAKE.' Miracle or whatever you call it, I'm able to get my codes. (Y)(Y) Freaking happy. :]

Went over to visit my cousins. I miss them. Even though, my plan is to get home and rest. I'm freaking tired. But I still went. I totally forget that Uncle rent one of his room out. So I as usual made a awkward moment out of my life again.

I was like playing with my cousins at the living room. And somehow not in a very good position and hair all over my face. The guy came out of the room. All the kids run over to him. And you know what? I'm left over on the sofa alone. The guy totally look at me and give me the what-is-she-doing-and-what-wrong-with-her-face look.. TOTAL AWKWARD.

Is already week 8 of this sem. Why suddenly time pass so fast without me knowing? How do I say that? I'm not really looking forward of working and all the pressure that eventually come when it come to the reality of working. I wasn't prepare. Although I always say that how nice to be able to work and got your own $ to spend, but I don't really want to work. As all the working experiences I had, I know working is a tough job of life. :/ Guess no one can escape from this job of life. Just hoping I doesn't need to change my job so fast to this.

I was given a order by dad to save $25 buck every months. Oh god. That for my phone bill. How nice is that? I know I need to be independent. FINE. I shall save. Who am I? Tee Sin Yi. I don't believe $25 a months would be that difficult for me. One day $1 also can. #jiayou Sinyi.

Thank to my lovely mum. She say she paying my first month for me. <3

也许因为不愿，而拒绝。

也许因为不服，而反抗。

也许因为害怕，而逃避。

但生命的考题不会因此而消失。

唯有了解自己，接受缺憾和面对问题。

你的人生才会有新的开始。

SsinyiI

2011-11-20T20:01:00.001+08:00

放下也许会痛，但会是往幸福的路。
曾经以为你是我的幸福，但惜乎是我搞错了。
这次我决定‘还是朋友’。

‘以前’对我来说不止是‘回忆’而是‘过去’。
这样的我改变了简单的友情。
那时的我太单纯。把你的礼貌和友情当作关心和爱情。
那时的我太幼稚。把对你的逃避变成了无聊的捉迷藏。

现在的，
我会找回大笑的我。
无论在你或朋友面前，我会笑的灿烂。
我会是你的朋友。像以前一样。
因为友情似乎比较适合我们。
你，我不再在乎。
我，会更快乐。
你，不必担心。
再见到时，请不要被我吓到。
因为，
我比以前勇敢。

SsinyiI

2011-11-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

回忆很凄美。因为太美而凄惨。
你很想念回忆，却回不去。
你拥有回忆，却无法重来。
回忆像海浪，一波又一波的来袭。
回忆像海啸般无法抵挡。

我就像困住般，无法挣脱。

2011-11-14T21:29:00.001+08:00

I love Monday ~ This my first Monday off.

Finally I understand the happiness of having Monday off ! Able to stay up late on a sunday's night. No need to worry about waking up early on a Monday. That feeling is great. (Y)

Woke up at 12plus. Spend my day watching all the drama that only out on Monday. On the past, I always have to find my time to catch them as I have school on Monday. But now, I just watch whenever I want on a Monday. HAHA.

Will be watching 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 tmr with Amanda and Jiamei. Hopefullly, the 3 of us able to reach AMK in time to buy the ticket and then off for the movie. (Y) I heard is super nice?

I guess this month, I am really have so many thing on plan... Hopefully, next month would be better. I want stay home and do nothing. LOL. This totally a UT month !

I need study for UT tmr. Some real hardcore study. I haven been starting on any study for any module yet. Am I a bad student??

MONDAY ~

SsinyiI

2011-11-13T22:27:00.001+08:00

Another week ended. Did I mention that I need rest?? This week, I went out almost every single day again!!!
I ate like Texas chicken twice this week, 炸鱼米粉 twice a day, shilling chickens + chicken rice same day, and today eat again!! I really ate a little io much this week!!! I really need to save $$ before I even start spending them all away.

Oh Xinyi even come over my house for a sudden stay over on Saturday night.

Okay, I not having enough sleep. And I know who to blame. Beside me silk got who?

Okay, I guess I shall take a nap. Since my off-day is changed into Monday. No more Monday blues!?

SsinyiI

lmt is bored, entertain her!

2011-11-05T20:18:00.003+08:00

i am bored too !

Ask me anything

any crazy things you did recently?

2011-11-05T20:18:00.001+08:00

crazy thing?? ermmm... nothing crazy. ~ :( how boring is my life?

Ask me anything

2011-11-04T22:40:00.004+08:00

一个礼拜，又结束了。我还是在原地踏步中～

我放下了吗？放下是什么？是勇敢？是面对？是不在乎？还是不去理会？

我现在是逃避吗？

为什么我对我的放下越来越没有信心了？为何我觉得我根本是在骗自己？

明明心里想说要去，要面对。是没时间还是下意识的没办法？

我到底放下了吗？

现在的我只想好好的努力一次。靠自己。也许我的唠叨不会少，但我的努力也一定不会少而会更多。我受够了未知的时刻。我要做个明白的人。我害怕落后的未知。我要有坚定的肯定。至少我也要是心服口服的落败。学习的路突然变的好短。似乎我很快的就看到未来的前景。不能再有无理的闹剧，只有发奋的图强。好好的拼一次。毕竟也没有太多的错可以犯了。

SsinyiI

2011-10-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

What a busy week.
Still didn't manage to have a good rest. :(
Many parent choose to give birth to their children in this week ar. Got quite a number of friends having birthday in this week. Busy ~
Hopefully, I get to rest in this week. No more outing,please. [Cross Finger]

I am really exhausted. I just want to stay on my bed and do nothing. I just want to think back. I just want to think of things that could never happen. Is not real and not going to happen but still, that my only way.

I just need some time by my own. Alone. For me to think over. A serious thinking for me is needed. I guess there a period of time when people just feel like going back to the past. This what happening to me now. Life moving too fast. Or should I say no man wait for anyone.

This shall be it. I will be fine,right?

SsinyiI

2011-10-25T22:55:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!

AMANDA WONG KAI XIN

We prepare a surprise for her. Amanda tot only I meeting up with her. But in the end, the rest of the girls appear up. HAHAHHA. With a cake. (Y) HAHAHAH
And of course, she went crazy with her present below. A videos of her unwrapping her present at my FB.

And now is photos time.
Just some photos. The rest is up in FB.

See the changes of us. I guess we didn't really change alot beside our hair. HAHAHHA. We know each other like around 4 years if start counting from secondary 3. All those precious memories in our mind and hearts. So much to say but no where to start. But I believe you will understand me. HAHAHHAHA.

Friends forever!!!! An old old phrase for all friends. :)

SsinyiI

2011-10-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

As Depit say I haven been blogging lately, I am back to blog.

But if I am not wrong, I did blog on Tuesday !! LOL

Went for NDP Leadership Training on Thur. Surprising quite a small number of people come. total like 8 including me, dar, xiurong and angela?? LOL. Guess not much people check email.

I am checking my email often because my PD Proposal.

My supervisor still haven accept my PD Proposal !!! Is still under the word 'Submitted' !!! Holy ~ So worry about it.

Back to NDP Leader topic. Should I be leader?? Feel that I am not up to it. Like stress de ar... LOL Never been leader. Shall see about it again.

Now facing with a tough question. Should I sleep early tonight?? Need to woke up at latest 9.30am. Will be travelling down to Aunt house at Jurong. :/ I am still quite awake.

假设好像变成了不错的习惯

假设你

假设还有机会

假设你没变

假设你在乎

假设我不痛

假设会让生活变的有希望吧。如果以这个出发点。

我也太乐观了吧。

至少这次我明白了。假设，无论如何，始终还是假设。从来都不可能会因我的假设变成不再是假设。

认清了事实也不过如此。

接受了事实也不过如此。

不变的还是事实

永恒的还是事实

我想也没有我能做的了。就这样吧。

现在的我没有那么痛了吧。

我会好的吧。没什么好怕的。

我是郑欣仪耶。

SsinyiI

2011-10-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

YEAH~
Been almost a week since I blogged.
Back with good news. (=

I finally brought myself Iphone !!!

Got my iphone at around last thur. TEEHEE. Currently, I'm enjoying my life of having iphone. I now understand why people tend to use laptop less often once they got their Iphone. Haven been using my com when I'm back home. HAHAHA. Basically, I can survive just by watching drama. Iphone does it.
That explain why I didn't blog these few days.

Beside that, next important would be PD Proposal. Submitted on Sunday. Please, Please don't ask me to add on or re-do. Accept my PD Proposal !!! MUST !!

Wont be in Singapore during this weekend. Will be going in Malaysia for Grandma's 90th birthday. Is a Pre-Birthday. Her birthday not on that day. But that a better date. Now still considering if we are staying over at anyone's house.
I want to stay but tired leh. I'm very tired these few days.

I fallen asleep on my bed today !! And one hour gone !! When did I even get so tired these few days?? Too much shopping?? HAHA. Thank to Cherie.
She made me went shopping with her on Monday!! LMAO

New class. Not bad after all,although I felt quite :O at certain times. Could I say I get along quite well with my new classmates?? At least there's jokes going around the class.

Almost all the modules are interesting and finally related to what my course is about. Digital Media and Animation !! Currently, my fav = Animation!! <3
Designing, ermm, not that much into drawing yet. We shall see.
W.A.D. So far not good. Problem 2 faci, no mood whenever I talk about her. Forget it !! Her favorite sentence 'YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND'. =.=

Anyway, life getting on. Whatever it comes, face it and deal with it.

SsinyiI

How did you celebrate your last birthday?

2011-10-18T20:50:00.007+08:00

stayover at friends house. (Y) Party the whole night!

Ask me anything

What piece of clothing in your closet will you never throw away?

2011-10-18T20:50:00.005+08:00

shorts

Ask me anything

What's the best present someone could give you right now?

2011-10-18T20:50:00.003+08:00

iphone products.

Ask me anything

Who is your favorite Sesame Street character?

2011-10-18T20:50:00.001+08:00

Cookies Monster.

Ask me anything

2011-10-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

The first week eventually come to an end today.

Got all my groups. Know all my group members.

What can I say?? Not bad. I get to team with my sem1 classmates. Get along quite well with my new classmates. My classmates are kind of funny. I tend to laugh quite alot in class. HAHAHA. Better than a boring and dead class.

Gotten back my first grade. B !! Faci said is a moderate learning. Does that mean not very good?? I'm quiet on the first day. :) But she still gave me a B. Thankful for that. Good start, I guess.

First week might be over. But I'm still having the first day tiredness!!!

Every morning, I'm doing this.

I'm waking up later and later each morning. And that force me to set my alarm earlier and earlier each time. Guess by the end of the year, my alarm start ringing at 2am !!

Second week starting tmr!! Be good!!

SsinyiI

2011-10-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

First day of school.
Feel so tired after a long day.
Today, I was busy doing emoticons in class !! LOL. All those images make me LOL in class!! Luckily faci not really looking at me. (Y)

See how Zek Ark can I be? LOL. Just for Joy.

Amanda A rocker !!! LOL

Amanda: THIS IS CUTE

DEPIT: Stop laughing!!

SsinyiI

2011-10-09T23:08:00.001+08:00

因为睡觉时间还没到，我也没那么想睡。所以，我打算打博客来打发时间～
我好闷哦！！想说打华文，时间应该会过的快一点吧～

今天下午的时候，约了Amanda。因为我可爱的老妈把我的银行存折给弄不见了。那我呢唯有去一趟ATM。要不然啊，我就别指望可以花我的薪水了。
Amanda带我去喂鱼！！我们一人买了一大包的面包。最后，还真的是买太多了！最后，我们变成了分面包的女孩！

星期四约了朋友要去血拼！！！血拼不管是男还是女，都是美好的事情～【重点：你必须有钱】。我可爱的老妈不知是哪来的自信。她既然没问过我就答应了阿姨。还跟阿姨说我有空带外婆下阿姨的家。并不是我不想带外婆，而是我要让老妈子明白她不能不问就帮我们答应别人。她这样的行为已经不是第一次了。这次一定要让她明白！让她学乖！哈哈哈！看她以后还敢不敢！！！我好坏哦！

我越写，我就越累！！

这是这个学期的时间表～　虽然只有四天，但我还是会累的！！！　

好累哦！　看来我的身体已经习惯了１１点就上床睡觉的。自然的睡在这个时段感觉到疲倦。

真的受不了我老弟。每天比我还晚回家。　一个中二的学生有必要那么晚回家吗？　就连周日也要出门？？　就那么一刻不想在家吗？　至少以前的我还是会避免周日出门。怎么说，周日也应该待在家吧。是与家人共处的一天吧。至少我是这样想的。真不明白他～

对了，说到PD. 据说是要写一篇关于自己的文章。写些关于自己的理想，想要达成的目标，自己擅长的事。

说的好听就像自我介绍，难听就是用文笔的方式来销售自己。这大概是在出社会前，大家必须学会的第一样课程吧~

这样的自我吹捧应该是我最不擅长的吧。毕竟我的优点没他人多，厉害之处更别说了。成功的设计也好像并没有~ 这样的我是要如何写我‘风管伟业’啊？

算了，我累了！

SsinyiI

Do you like to be the center of attention?

2011-10-09T13:58:00.001+08:00

with my friends, okay. but not with strangers.

Ask me anything

2011-10-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

Friday !!!

I was late for talk. Therefore, I end up rushing into the room. As always~

Went back home to pack my stuff and rush down to meet Amanda and Jiamei. Went down to office to collect salary. And as I thought, the salary is given to account cheque! =.=

Went over to stay over with Lmt. Ate at Aston. I love the food there. Cheap and Nice. (Y) And from the pictures, you can tell is a crazy night. Both of us playing with the ipad. DEPIT CHUA, WE FASHION,RIGHT?

Saturday

Woke up 1pm. Went for lunch. Watched Lin Bei 11p, which is the final episode. Lin Bei really end very fast and quick. Then we watch a horror movie. From Korean. If not wrong, the movie name is 'White'. I freak out for a few moment !!

Cherie came over in the evening. And with the 3 of us and LMT's mum at home, that would mean MAHJONG!

First time I actually won some real money instead of losing my butt off. I wasn't that bad in mahjong, isn't I??

Grandma would be coming over to stay with us on Tuesday? Not a confirm plan yet, due to my aunt got some event on for her. So, I shall wait for my mum's call at Tuesday. If a yes, I would go ahead and pick her up at Aunt's house.

Hopefully, I would be able to spend my money... Not more delay please!!

SsinyiI

2011-10-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

IS THURSDAY !

There is no school on Friday for me. So YEAH~

But the sad thing about this week is that I need to be back in school on Friday. 12.30 !! For the PD/PP talk. =.= Why cant my first Friday be a good and nice one ?

And would be staying over at LMT's house on friday to saturday. Heart to Heart section (Y) Doesn't all girls just love chatting the night away??

TIRED MAX. For the first week. Is only the first week~~

Steve Jobs passed away.

He is a legend. I always love apple's product. And he is the one that create Apple what it is today. RIP. Steve Jobs.

SsinyiI

2011-10-05T23:24:00.002+08:00

HOLY SHIT. First day of school.

One word: Awkward Max.
Although I team with people from last previous sem, I still feel kinda awkward facing the new classmates.

I don't know why I'm freaking tired.

I'm draggggggggggingggggg my feet when I'm going home. Waking up for my stop. Super tired. Dragging my feet to bathe, to do my RJ and stuff.

The fastest speed I have for the whole day is when eat and nap.

Please SCHOOL, At least not that tiring.

SsinyiI

2011-10-04T23:37:00.001+08:00

I know is late. Tmr is school.
I'm not tired yet. UGH. How can I fall asleep when I'm not at all tired?
I will try.

Is not really about school starting tmr. Is more of worry for the classmate that I'm going to have for this 15 weeks.

What type of person would they be? How am I going to talk to them?? Should I talk to them first??? What if they don't like me??? That would be the most important question.

RP students really got strong heart. RP students just have to go though this process every single semester. I have strong heart !

Okay, as I blog, I start to get tired and sleepy eye.
Sleepy eye stay on ~

Busy days ahead.

SsinyiI

Who is the last friend you made?

2011-10-04T02:59:00.001+08:00

erm...rui qi. at my work place.

Ask me anything

2011-10-03T00:07:00.003+08:00

Finally bring my body out of the house at Saturday, after 7days of staying-home.

Went out to meet Huimin and Jocelyn Yow. Xinyi is suppose to be at Bishan too, but rain stopped her from leaving house. [That totally her]
Both of the girls are not feeling well. So chicken rice, Koi and home sweet home for both of them.

Some pictures that Jocelyn and I took while waiting for Huimin to go toliet.

Special photo!!! Only avaible in my blog.

Being me, I wont go home so early since I'm all dressed up and already left house. Went to Xinyi's house to look her up,since she didn't come over to meet me.
Finally got chance to see her baby niece in person. She is really cute. And she really grows up in a family of love. :)
Both of us got really bored and start to see if anything for us to eat. Fruits, noodles and eventually alcohol! LOL. But we only try one cup each.

I dont really like it. LOL. Milk and whiskey is too harsh for me. HAHAHA. 17%, I not sure if it is high.... I put quite a loads of ice. And still very bitter for me to drink. Although is added together with milk, the smell of the alcohol is still very strong for me to take it.

Monday's outing with the girls is cancelled. Amanda is down with throat inflection. Hope she would recover asap. Yet nothing I can do. :/

Amanda, Remember our movie,okay!

Before I left house, I took some photo. Recently, I have the uge to change my hairstyle to middle. But I guess doesn't seem right. LOL

Hmmm? LMT say very old school. lol

I cant imagine school starting on wed. I guess still holiday mood !

原来你是这样想的。明白了，我不可能爱你。因为说了，我就真的失去关心的资格了。

给我些时间。我会把不该有的多余感觉收起，再次成为像当初的‘好朋友’

SsinyiI

Have you ever adopted a pet?

2011-10-02T20:06:00.001+08:00

no. didn't got the chance. parent the big problem.

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What song makes you smile?

2011-10-01T01:45:00.001+08:00

彩虹气泡！

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what is your fav. food?

2011-10-01T01:43:00.001+08:00

that a tough question for me. because who hate food??

Ask me anything

2011-09-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

Went out today with Mum. Haircut today. Mum suggest us go for a little shopping lookout. Mum wanted to buy some skirt. She got her skirts. 2 from cotton on. HAHA! But I also brought some shirts. LOL. How can I never buy anything!!

Can you find out the different in my hair? LOL?

All my clothes that is brought today. Very little only.

Good girl never buy much.

Brought from cotton on. $1 for one.

I going back to buy more different colours!!!

[After I get my salary]

So many things that I see today and feel like buying. And I cant stop saying 'After i get my salary'. But my salary cant let me buy so many things as I want to buy. Say say only!! Cant wait for my salary to arrive!! How much is my salary !! Hopefully, my salary is over $650~

And please Iphone4 white's price please go down before oct 7 !!

Now welcome to OCTOBER!

Hopefully, October would be a new start. New Month, New Class !

p.s cherish every moment of the new start. you never know when you get the chance again.

SsinyiI

2011-09-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

幸福。快乐。

不知从何时，我也变成了【模仿】幸福的【快乐】。

在确定离开是我的选择后，我开始【模仿幸福】。模仿久了，连我都慢慢的以为这模仿的幸福就是幸福。其实它只不过是人们口中那好像【幸福】的【快乐】。

在朋友前，在家人前，甚至在【他】或【她】面前，我都可以装的很幸福。幸福的那么像他人眼中的幸福。也许【模仿久了】，也是希望自己可以向幸福靠近那么一点点。

【快乐】真的很像【幸福】。像的我们都差点被快乐给骗了。

但你是否有在你觉得好快乐的一天下来，也还是感到那么一点点的【遗憾】。会不会像要是能这样，能那样，会不会变得更【完美】？或是和朋友快乐的过了一天后回到家，你还是会感到那一丝丝的【失落】。因为毕竟现在能和你一同快乐的不再是那个你希望的【他或她】。

如果你问我【幸福】和【快乐】的差距，我会这样说：

【幸福】应该是无论你做了什么都是【满足】。只要是对的人或是对的事，无论是什么你都会觉得很满足。这样就真的够了。

【快乐】只是【懂得知足】，让自己觉得自己只值得那样罢了。就算有什么的希望都不会说出或做出要求。能够这样也变成了侥幸。

你是幸福的？还是快乐？？

欣仪

what kind of music do you listen to?

2011-09-28T02:55:00.001+08:00

Mostly chinese song. but also english. Other language too, if i think is nice.

Ask me anything

2011-09-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

New class is out. That the reason why I'm here.

My modules for this sem.
Web Application Development = PROGRAMMING??
Computer Animation = Hmmm... not bad.
Digital Media Technologies = somehow the word 'Technologies' always make it not that fun.
Fundamentals of Design = Design?? Fundamentals??

Please let the modules be fun. At least, I would feel better.

Sometimes, i just wonder why my not-that-really-that-I-want-But-Say-For-Fun wishes just come so true??

But got 2 classmates from year2sem1. :) That something to be grateful for. :)

Only can get my salary after school start. Cant wait for oct 7 to come.
But i don't want school to start.
That confusing. UGH.

Forget it. Enjoy my holiday first.
Bye, people.

SsinyiI

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2011-09-27T14:16:00.001+08:00

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What three words would you use to describe yourself?

2011-09-25T16:14:00.001+08:00

lazy, smile, blur!

Ask me anything

2011-09-25T01:42:00.001+08:00

WORK FINALLY END!!!!
13 days of work!!! Like FINALLY~~
Although 13 days might not be a long one, but the kind of pressure is more than any job that I got.
There was a temporary staff survey form. We totally spam the Others Comment!! Okay, fine. I'm the one that wrote the MOST~ I wrote mostly about the attitude of the staff. Most frequent asked question on the last day: Would you be joining the company again? My answer: NO~~~ !!! LOL.

我沒有你要的快樂

是你演的逼真還是我天生遲鈍

何時多了個角色換了劇本

手牽著也只是牽著

再見說得很慎重

愛情要離開的聲音我聽懂了

我沒有你要的快樂你的愛情不住在我這

明知道拖著是種折磨

卻選擇越愛越沉默

我沒有你要的快樂就請讓我幫你做選擇

沒有留下祝福就離開

請原諒我

是你演的逼真還是我天生遲鈍

何時多了個角色換了劇本

手牽著也只是牽著

再見說得很慎重

愛情要離開的聲音我聽懂了

我沒有你要的快樂你的愛情不住在我這

明知道拖著是種折磨

卻選擇越愛越沉默

我沒有你要的快樂就請讓我幫你做選擇

沒有留下祝福就離開

請原諒我

我沒有你要的快樂你的愛情不住在我這

明知道拖著是種折磨

卻選擇越愛越沉默

我沒有你要的快樂就請讓我幫你做選擇

沒有留下祝福就離開

請原諒我

既然决定离开，就要学会割舍，学会遗忘。
要懂得你的爱情不在我这，不是我能给的，不是你要的。
请原谅没能留下祝福而先行离开的我。
请原谅我先为你做了决定。
离开你的我，终究找到我的快乐。
你会一直快乐。

SsinyiI

Who is your favorite YouTuber?

2011-09-24T02:44:00.001+08:00

NIGAHIGA !

Ask me anything

2011-09-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'M HERE WITH A GOOD NEWS!

(回眸一笑?) > LOL

My supervisor just told us that he would like the project to end by 23 Sept.
23 SEPT = THIS COMING FRIDAY.

This job totally just need us to sit down and make calls. But why do I feel so FREAKING tired???
I want money, but I want to rest?? Where got job can fulfill this 2 ridiculous conditions of mine??
Planned to work till the end of the month. But since the project ending early, I shall go with the flow. I freaking going to sleep my days from 26 Sept till school reopen. This 3 weeks of working totally KILL MY BEAUTY SLEEP.

Bro pierce his ear. Not the normal place, is the top of the ear[bone area]. Isn't that my DREAM LOCATION?? Painful !!! And of course, my mum nag at first and eventually accept it. I kinda agree he should pierce. [Am I a bad sister?]

忙碌的生活，我尝试遗忘。
疲累的身躯，我尝到绝望。
为何我的心，还是不会忘？

SsinyiI

What's your favorite card game?

2011-09-20T20:17:00.001+08:00

monopoly deal and uno!

Ask me anything

What book are you reading right now?

2011-09-18T00:50:00.001+08:00

I don't read books. LMAO

Ask me anything

2011-09-18T00:47:00.001+08:00

Counting down the days...

2 more weeks and the work will end.

I like to eat nutella this way. Biscuits!

Just taking my cam around my house.

This rabbit is given by my Bro to me. HAHA

How sweet is him?

My 2 BIG BIG PIGGY~

Woke up at 5pm at 17.09. Didn't realize that I slept soooooo lateeee! Waste like half of my day. Sleeping my day away. Darm. Now my Day = Night, Night = Day.
This always happen to me like all the time.

Salary Plan:
1. Get a Iphone.
2. Buffet date with my babes&hunks.
3. Get few more shorts and shirts.
4. Maybe 1 long pants? [Mum want me get one]

That all for the time being. That already like money fly away~~
Goodbye my money.
All these plan still depending on how much I would be getting at the end of the day.

Hopefully not lesser than 800 after the CPF deduction.

SsinyiI

if someone asked you a dumb question, how will you answer it?

2011-09-17T23:19:00.001+08:00

give a dumb answer. and roll my eye. LOL

Ask me anything

do you have someone in your heart now?

2011-09-17T23:18:00.003+08:00

trying to make him disappear? counted?

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what's your ideal age of getting married and have kids?

2011-09-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

after 25

Ask me anything

2011-09-16T02:54:00.003+08:00

原来你真的可以。
原来我真的可以。
看来真的结束了。
是我笨，是我蠢，是我还希望。
这次后，以后，还有【以后】吗？

有人说那是喜欢。可是那是假的吧。
我不值得你。就连一句问候也不值得。
看着你和她，幸福的样子，好幸福哦。幸福的好残忍。
她漂亮，可爱，会撒娇。我？简单的可被遗忘，脾气坏。
我并不是真的想那么的不是我。我不想试探，我也想像她。
可是你不可能问她那样问我过的是否好。
你不可能和我像她那样和我合照。
你不可能对我的生活有兴趣。

你们像在空中飞翔的海鸥。可以飞的那么高，那么的远。
而我是海里的小鱼。永远都不可能傲翔在你们共同拥有的天空。
至少你们的天空是彼此的，而我唯有眺望。眺望永远不能到达的碧海蓝天。

我累了。
谢谢你让我明白。
你永远也不可能，也不曾为我先开口。
我不会再浮出海面，我会永远沉在海底。不再希望有一天，你有可能为我把头伸进海里。

小鱼

Where would you travel if you could go anywhere in the world?

2011-09-16T01:14:00.001+08:00

I would like to go to Egypt. That always a secret place for me.

Ask me anything

2011-09-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

CHALET !!! 12/09 ~ 14/09

After I start working, I haven been a day that I'm not looking forward for this 3 days. These 3 days seriously pass so fast~ So much faster than those working days that I had.

I went over to LMT's house on 11/09. Her dad fetching LMT to chalet. So, Cherie and I hop on together. HAHA.

12/09: Got the room. Start preparing for BBQ. Hop over to Sec's Chalet for like an hour? Trolley back to chalet. Water Bomb Match between the Girls and Boys. That my favorite part of the chalet. Bathed. Changed into pajamas. Some really unrated happen in our chalet. LOL. Alcohol, another MUST for chalet. I didn't drink much as I didnt bring my medi with me.

13/09: Everyone simply woke up late. Order Mac. That like the most easy to get meal if you are lazy to make during chalet. Delivery man ! And gambling start. Poker! :) 2nd round of BBQ start. Depit left first. 2nd round of alcohol. I didn't join the 2nd round. Tired. In the room chatting with Lmt, Cherie and Ricky. But saw David jumping around killing a bee? LOL. Eileen was drunk. Taking the Air conditional's controller and point to the fan? LOL

14/09: Woke the girls up. They bathed. I'm too lazy to bathe. Anw, getting home straight. I took around 2hours to reach home. LMAO. Don't ask me how I get home, I don't know too.

These photos are taken from my cam. Not much photos taken. But all these are enough for the memories to stay.

The girls!

Twin that left early. He always miss the exciting part.

The boys~

Back from chalet and went to work the next day. I totally fall asleep every single second. First time, falling asleep in the toliet, when calling, when standing. I even snatch for seat in MRT. I'm just too freaking tired. I'm so going to sleep late for every single day till the next working day. I SWEAR.

From today onward, I going to switch off my phone whenever I'm resting for the night. No more sms and calls can disturb me from my precious sleep!

SsinyiI
p.s Sleep is important because dream only come true there.

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2011-09-14T15:06:00.003+08:00

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What's your favorite app on your mobile phone?

2011-09-14T15:06:00.001+08:00

music. so basic but cant be without.

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2011-09-08T22:43:00.001+08:00

I was planning to sleep. But thank to my sore throat, Mum want me to drink down one whole big cup of sweet potato drink. So, I got some times to spare.

The week pass kinda fast. Everyday work work work. Back home just blackshot blackshot.
I kinda fall in love with playing knife. I know I wont score good in using those gun. So the second chance I have is using the knife.
Now I feel that I'm kinda pro? [so bhb!!]. All this gaming will stop once my passion is over. But this time round, I last quite long. At least longer than I thought I will.

Tmr will be the last day of work for this week. Cant wait for this week to be over. And next upcoming event is CHALET!!!

I'm so freaking miss the fun of us gathering together. Since school end, I haven been seeing anyone of them. Some of them out of town, some working like me, some stay at home and rot [because no one is free] and some busy dating?? LOL
Whenever I mention them to my other friends, I just like a spolit tap. Never ever seem to stop mentioning about the fun.

I guess Amanda got the taste of it. Luckily, she seem very able to 'endure' me in sharing my life with her. That the very basic thing I look out for being a friend.
Some of the friends I used to call friends just didn't show me they are willing to listen to any little bits of my life. Beside me saying stuff that have them in it.

Still the same old word for this month. ENDURE!
Eventually, all these enduring would come to an good end.

SsinyiI

2011-09-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

Another week of work start.
Time passed quite fast today. Finally finish all the Philippines[New]. Until today then I realize I actually got 244 number to call while the other only got at most 170++

Darm, shouldn't have choose Philippines. From what I know, David would like me to call Malaysia too. I still got around 200 call back to do. UGH. TIRED!

Hopefully time pass fast tmr too.
Hopefully everyday the time pass fast.

This job doesn't make me fall in love with office work at all. I guess I just not the stay-at-office type. Totally not a office-lady type.

Office-lady [Not applicable for all office lady]:
- Selfish!
- Think proudly for themselves
- Think that as long as they are the permanent staff, they should have the right to use the pantry's table as long as they want.
- Don't think for the others.
- Look down on Part-Time Staff.

I shall call her Selfish-Lady.
For your information, our pantry only got one small table that only allows 3 person to sit and eat. And when this Selfish-Lady came into the pantry and she saw all 3 seat taken, she totally slam her water bottle loudly and walk out. I'm like WTH? Any meaning for that?? We came first, of course we got to eat first. What the meaning of that?? There's actually no rules that we should give up the seat to you. Anyway, my friends decided to give up our seat and the 3 of us squeeze on that 2-person-sofa.
If I'm there alone, I wont even get up and give a damn to you. So be grateful.
And guess what?
When she saw we give up the seat, she totally 'diao' us and give us the face like is a RULE that we should give up our seat. And she just squeeze though us and grab her 'Slamed' water bottle that is left on top of the water cooler.
I'm like 'What the hell she actually want??' We did nothing wrong? No rules stating that we, part timer, have no right to sit on tables of pantry to have our lunch. Cant understand why are there so unreasonable lady?
And they took their own sweet time to munch on their food. They wouldn't even give up their seat to us even if that HAD FINISHED their food. How selfish can they be?? And while they are chatting on the pantry's table, my friend have to eat her soup noodle without a table? Cant them be more 'auto' ??

Seriously, her stupid-sickening face just ruin my mood every single time I saw her.

Seriously, so what if you are permanent staff? Stuck there forever? Having no life?
I cant be so sure ever that I wouldn't even thinking of getting in this industry. That for sure.

And you can have the whole pantry to yourself when we are gone. Before that, I will show you, LOVE SHOULD BE SHARE.

P.S STUPID-SICKENING ASSHOLE!

SsinyiI

What if you woke up as the person you hate most and he/she is naked?

2011-09-04T21:31:00.001+08:00

What if you woke up as the person you hate most and he/she is naked?

Answer here

2011-09-03T21:27:00.001+08:00

Started work on 31 Aug. Already worked for 3 days.
1st day start work at 10am and end at 5.45pm.
2nd day start work at 8.45am and end early. Due to server break down.
3rd day - FULL DAY WORK with only 1 time server break down. =.=

Is only 3 days of work! Not only me, but all of us are already so tired.
4 more weeks to go.
- Working week, Chalet Week, Working Week, Working Week.

This job is rather relaxing for me. At least it doesn't require me to stand the whole day promoting and looking at customer's faces. My supervisor is quite a good guy.
But here still really that 101 thing that I couldn't understand about this company.

Basically, our job is to sit down and call up the customer/client and talk to them about the upcoming project/promotion.
But why cant we wear 3/4 pants ??
I can understand that slipper wouldn't be appropriate for the 'office' job.
But what's wrong with shorts or 3/4 pants? We are not actually 'facing' the customer/client.
We are just going to sit down on the chair and make calls. Why should we actually wear smart formal? Maybe shorts are too revealing for 'office' job but 3/4 pants should be alright?
And guess what, you can allow skirts/dresses but you don't allows shorts or 3/4 pants? From what I see in the office, there's girls wearing skirts that are so short that I could see their panties !! But you don't allow shorts that YOU CAN ACTUALLY SEE NOTHING !
I don't know that just doing call up job, we need to be that formal. :)

And yeah, there always a bitch in almost every job that I got in. Maybe you call that a rule[attire] for the company. I have and must accept it since I'm eyeing on your company's money. I endure!
But this bitch just simply have to like stare at us ?? Are you in love with one of us?
The server is down, we cant continue with work. That doesn't mean we are like trying not to do work. Do you have to stare/look at us like we are trying to get away from work?
Whenever we walk pass you or just going to the toliet or just trying to refill our water bottle, you simply have to stare at us??
And do you need to 'SHHHH' us?? No one is asking us to quiet down beside you. C'mon is break time.
Or are you jealous about you not having friends that can have fun with?? That why you can only have fun talking to people in the phone??

All would be over on 30 Sept. I cant wait for the day to come.
Get my money, Get my IPHONE. And I will get lost myself out of there. :)

ENDURE, MY WORD FOR THIS MONTH.

SsinyiI

2011-08-31T21:21:00.001+08:00

How tired can I be?
Couldn't fall asleep last night and guess what?
That the outcome of today. Totally madness TIRED. I can just fall asleep anytime, anywhere and totally anyhow.

Reach there at 10am as told. The training was like 2 and half hour long?? That super long. Guess around 1 hour, we are spending our own sweet time in the room, talking and role-playing.

Lunch Break is from 12.30pm to 1.30pm. I guess nothing wrong with the lunch break timing. BUT I went to work at 8.45, which mean I woke up at around 6++ ? I would be totally empty stomach from 6 to 12.30?? That like 6hour of NO-EATING !!! AWWWW!

Luckily, the company allows us to have some biscuits or sweets with us. If not, I guess, I wouldn't be able to tahan till then. Guess, I'm going to grab any food from Tricia or Jiamei! HAHAHHA.

Amanda will be joining us tmr. It will be her first day. She is not going to do the same project as us but under the same supervisor. So, she would still be able to work 'together' with us physically(side by side table).

Slowly getting the hang of the work. Hopefully, this would get better as the time pass. And work please end fast. HAHHAHA.

JIAYOU,SINYI. IPHONE !!!

SsinyiI

2011-08-26T04:22:00.002+08:00

本来没想要写博客的。但因为我在25号的那一天做了一件很白痴的事。
我既然把考试的日期给记错了！应该25号考的，但我却记成了26号。在25号的凌晨的5/6点的时候，我还在玩Tweet和看戏。不止这样哦，我还超自豪的跟有考试的朋友说 “我没有考试” + "哈哈哈” ！！真的太白痴了吧～幸好我2点多就起床了。到了3点,我还在开心的用着电脑。到了4点才发现自己把时间搞错了。

立刻换衣，收电脑，跑下楼。超紧张的啦！我慌的连德士司机都叫我不要慌！真的太丢脸了啦！跑到了科室，看看了，座位都满了。立刻走出科室，查了查考试地点。对啊，没错啊。又回到科室。里面的人心想这个人也太白痴了吧！考试开始了。突然有人说：“哎呀，我来错班！”。我就想啊，不可能，我不可能进错班。最后，原来是她！间接害得我那么尴尬。

就算下个礼拜的最后一个考试了，美术。这样说来，没有需要努力读的科目了。应该还能好好的休息一下。还没好好的准备要送人的礼物。要赶紧去敲好。

学学朋友的结束方法。
好了，不说了。

SsinyiI

2011-08-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

Just a short update for upcoming event.

Currently is UT week. UT3 going to end at 29 Aug. CST UT3 over, tmr is Programming UT3. After tmr, still got 2 more UT ongoing.

Appreciation dinner on 28 Aug.
I still need to prepare the present that I'm suppose to give to the person I picked. Already got something on mind. :)

Party by NDP's friends on 30 Aug. The last day of REST before I start on my part time job. I shall see if I'm going to stay till very late.

My Part Time:
8.45 to 5.45. Mon to Fri.
Wake up early just like secondary. Still using laptop like Poly. Ha.
Salary going to be use for me to buy IPHONE. Yipee. Dad agree on helping me sign on the contract. :) Happygirl93. Happiness can be that simple.

SsinyiI

2011-08-18T01:22:00.005+08:00

我的人生终于要从新开始了吗？

不再有刺痛的感觉。而是更加的怀念。

越想往前，越想勇敢，越想伪装的我是更加的怀念。

没法恨你的我是如此的拿自己没办法。

曾是如此的想让自己能恨你多一点。

想想你不闻不问，想想你是真的那么残忍。口里是说的你一文不值，心里却想帮你想好了解答。

为何越是尝试的我还是那么不舍？我已经好努力了。我好累了。

无人的时候，你还是出现。那些令人怀念的回忆像是在嘲笑我永远都不可能。

我突然想到。你是否会来这里。看看我过的好吗。可是我想。你应该很忙吧。怎么可能有空理会我。

你真的不会来看我吗？

我一直在听《放了自己》

你有過期待　也有過等待滿腔熱血只無奈

期待的等待着。明白了决定。。。

你的堅強很爭氣只是怎麼學不會忘記

我努力的坚强着。在朋友前开玩笑。。。嘲笑自己的感情

坚强的教人如何爱自己却连忘记都还学不会。这样的我又有什么资格？

放了自己　放了回憶

放了世界不過如此而已

多少慶幸　多少風景

在放了之後才清晰

放了自己　放了回憶

放了那　配不上妳的傷心

你該詮釋的不再是悲劇主角的殘影

而是新的自己

放了你 = 放了自己？回忆忘不了，也丢不掉。像是烙印永恒的烙在心上。

不小心的碰到还没结疤的伤口，还会流血。这样，要多久才会痊愈？

當那幸福的號誌　又一如往常的亮起

笑著放了自己

不渴望拥有幸福。只愿学会放弃，学会忘怀。

至少现在的我学会按着伤口，忍着痛，开心的笑。

终有一天，伤口会好的吧。

你也是曾经的关心我的吧。

SsinyiI

2011-08-18T01:02:00.001+08:00

Resting at home like a free loader.
Studying at home like a good girl.
Eating at home like a baby.

My calender. Pardon me for the hand writing. HAHA
As you can see, Understand Test 3 is coming. 22, 24, 26, 29 Aug !!!
And right after 29 Aug, I'm going to start work.
Work for money, Money for my goal.
I'm saving to buy IPHONE 4. That is. Let see if I could get it.
[YA YA YA... I KNOW IPHONE 5 COMING OUT]

SsinyiI

2011-08-14T01:58:00.004+08:00

做了一个决定。

从此消失？

还是功成身退？

是不甘心，还是不舍得？

是感觉还是个人偏见？

是死心还是没了心？

不要问我为何？

有些事不是说明就能有个明白。。。

明白了，我的离去不会影响任何人，也不可能改变任何事。

接受了，多余的是我。

离开了，会好的。

--------------------------------------------------

我曾是 [胆小] 的人

胆小是因为怕。

怕不顺从，会被嫌弃

怕不信服，会被更换

怕不接受，会不被接受

怕不追寻，会被遗弃

拍不跟随，会被遗留

怕的我，不在有自己。

找回自己

找回真我

找寻的路

也许会害怕

也许会胆怯

也许会想退缩

但从今天起就

勇敢的说出自我，表现自我

让大家也知道你的想法。

不说，你永远也不知道你也是特别的。

SsinyiI

2011-08-06T02:40:00.001+08:00

Another Friday night spending alone on my bed.
Guess another long blog for me to talk about what happen this week.
Not going out. Just rest at home and touch up my coding.

Overall this week, I'm busy with Depit's Istar at the start of the week, and my programming coding at the end of the week.
Luckily Istar is over on the start of week. Not crushing with my programming .
Didn't think I would be able to even finish 50% of the code, but help from classmates. All could be possible, I guess? LOL

P.S I always not feeling well when placing my laptop on my leg and type. :/

Before I even start blogging about this week, let talk about David's birthday celebration first. People say Picture speak a thousand word. So let picture do the talking.

Yeah the board. :)

David the Awesome.

Err... Yes that girl's panties ! Red !

Cake designed by Meiting, Eileen and me. :)

Birthday is going to be a blast each time.

Now we can finally talk about this week.

Wonderful and busy week.

ISTAR FINAL: Depit.

Position is no longer a really important element of this competition anymore. [I guess].

Support by friends(Yes, we! LOL)!!

I really like working together with friends and doing stuff together and support one another.

Everyone do need someone / somebody to support or push them though each challenges.

Again, pictures your turn. :)

Board done up!

Depit on stage. He is nervous.

Depit and his ex. Meiting

Wonderful. :)

If you want to watch him sing, you can go to http://www.youtube.com/user/SsinyiIshow

That my channel. I upload-ed the videos in there. :)

Or just type ISTAR final in youtube.

____________________________________________________________________

曾经是你让我明白我并不是那么寂寞。

因为有了你的陪伴，我好想并不需要一人承担。

至少你是倾述的对象。

至少我有了聆听的对象。

但，我发现这并不是我想象的那样。

那是同情也好，实施也好，关心也好。

当我，你把我们看的不一样的时候，关系也应该结束。

我好想没有真正的问过你。

但好像不问，我心里还有办法告诉自己，也许。。。

但时间久了，心也明白了，我也接受了吧。

有些事不许问也自有答案

答案很简单，每个人都懂。

可是偏偏我就用了比较就的时间，比较多的泪水，比较多的执着。

最后也伤的比较深。

决定了离开。

是逃跑吗？

如果有人还是不小心触动到那灰色地带，心还是会痛一下。

当有回到无人的空间，回忆像是瀑布一直又往脑里，心里冲。

这样的我算完全康复了吗？

还是把为人闻之的回忆埋藏在心里唯有他去过的那秘密空间？

SsinyiI

2011-07-26T12:59:00.000+08:00

Since there's no school tml and me still awake in this hour, I shall blog.
Let me start with showing you guys pictures. :)

Vision 20/07/2011
Vision, a magic show. This should be the first time I ever went to such big magic show. Amazing show that I would ever want to watch it again if I got the change.
There a few scene that truly make me feel so :O . My favorite part would be the part where the Daddy flew up high in the sky and there goes the daughter, disappear in thin air. <3
This totally not the only scene in the show that is amazing. Watch it yourself, and you understand what I meant.

NDP as usual.

As everyone know, my NE tickets is given to my dear friend, Amanda. But she's is unable to see me dance due to her seating position. :/ But still, she enjoyed the show. (=

This taken not on last sat. Should be last last sat. LOL.

This taken by Joslyn as she went to NDP too.

Saw me?

A short meet up with Amanda yesterday.

While waiting for Tanjiamei to get her stuff from popular, we 2 start camwhore-ing again.

Yar, I know. That what girls do.

But we didn't expect the outcomes of the photo would be so good.

[Yes, we kind of like the photo]

And YEAH. My finally announcement to make:

My Friend, Depit, did us proud by getting to the final of IStar.

I'm not very sure what I could to do really help, so... :/ Pardon me. LMAO.

Whatever is it, You are already the winner of IStar in our heart !! Come on, you made the star look ike they're not shinning. (=

And now what I'm busy on?

Assignment UT2 for programming. SERIOUSLY, I don't really have any ideas what to do and how do I even can start working on it. People told me is Problem 10. But I seriously not really know what happen in class for that few problem. Why Assignment 2 not pure SQL ? At least, I think I can do better in Xpath or whatever it is tested on.

Sometime, I really thinking why do I alway make bad choices in life?

1st: Shouldn't have even take Home Economic if my interest in doing Arts !

2nd: I should have jolly well move my butt to STA instead of suffering in SIT !!

If someone ask me, did I ever regret anything in life. I would say these two decision is my worst decision. )=

Since there's like no way, I could ever change this hardcore decision that I already made in my life, I need to stuck on with it and find the least happiness I can get. Be grateful, and think is not that bad after all.

Around 2 more weeks of school and Year Two Semester One will eventually come to an end. I cant wait for it to be over because all those happiness would only come after that and , of course, those DARM IT ut. :/

Chalet planned for the 10 of us. That would be wonderful. Those time spend together within the 10 of us is great.

I guess I better stop, if not this post is getting longer and longer. Me and my nagging. :)

SsinyiI

2011-07-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

天慢慢暗下，夜慢慢沉静。
忙碌的一天也结束了。最后的夜里，还是一个人。
无情的是时间，留恋的是回忆。
徘徊在过期的回忆，试着寻找当初的温度。
这样的循环重复着，无能为力的追寻你的脚步。

幸好你不像我如此的卑微，拉住你残留给我的回忆。
用尽全力回忆着曾经属于我们的爱情话语。
但时间却一直重复的提醒我你不再属于我。

我不是你爱情的句点。。。

欣仪

2011-07-13T12:30:00.034+08:00

Super busy recently. UGH. End of UT1 and Start of UT2. :/
Submitted UT2's Drawing

I draw twice. After finish drawing the first one, I then know that the drawing suppose to be smaller than the A4 by 1.5cm. Therefore, need to draw again. :/

I also waste around 3-4 paper just by cutting the 1.5cm.

Went for a sudden-mahjong session with the girls today. I lost 10 bucks ! The most ! UGH. Totally not my luck.

Mum went Malaysia for 3 days. Coming back on Thur. I seriously miss my Mum's cooking.

近来的日子都过的超快。快的我希望变慢。但日子慢了，我有嫌慢。人也许都是犹豫不决的。想想，日子过的快比较好吧。快乐的事来的快，伤心的是也过的快。事情有坏，也一定有好。不要为了不好的事情而唾弃，而想好有多美好的遗留着。因为至少它们没有遗留下你。

接下来的日子，我只想更能做自己。简单却越难。往往人太过于追求复杂而忘了简单带来的那种纯真。

SsinyiI

2011-07-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

想起从前的我是那么的坚信爱情。我不禁的笑了笑。年轻真好。是那么的天真，那么的傻。曾经那么无怨无悔守护的爱情却是那么的不堪一击。

是长大了吗？是成熟了吗？是看清了现实吗？还是看清了爱情这个杀手？

它，或他，曾让我感到云端的兴奋，也让我跌如深渊的悲痛。像云霄飞车一样。但我的车似乎再也没有升起过。就一直的往下冲。。。

我不能说我痊愈了。在独处的夜里，在孤单的等候，我还是能在心里深处找到他的背影。

还是想念他的温柔，还是想看到他的笑容，还是想听到他的笑声，还是渴望他在我的身边。

我成功的也在这怀念的过程中学会了埋藏。把他像秘密一样的埋藏在心里不见阳光的地方，心中的最最深处。

我不相信有谁能真正的痊愈。他们只不过学会了坚强，学会了隐藏，学会了埋藏。

学会了坚强的面对曾经爱自己人，曾经单单属于自己的人。

学会了隐藏自己的爱。学会了把爱埋藏，永远的冰封。

也许我的心不够大，无法接受，无法容忍别人进入我的心。还是我已经习惯了痛？这个他留给我最后的礼物。

别人口中的完美爱情，真爱，我还是一样的希望拥有。也许是因为不曾拥有过，而更加的相望吗？相望心里的那一半。。。

我已经无力在追寻。。。

我已经无心在拥有什么。。。

只愿心能够不再痛。。。

欣仪

2011-07-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

First NDP practice with audiences. (Y) We did. Got our performance's clothes.
Did my drawing at the playground with Dennis and Minhao. They super free de la.
Didn't go to school on Mon, because I cant tahan stress. LOL Seriously, I cant forgive bitch-es !
I don't care if u are coming to this area of mine or if u ever get a chance to see this, I'm still saying it here. This's my space.
I cannot stand some of you and her's action. I wont want to know if you did that in purpose or you didn't think much for the others. But seriously, you 2 need a change.
I seriously tot you 2 are nice person and more than willing to be friends with you two. But your action are stopping me.
I might not have the best temper in the world but at least I did my best to endure you two for the whole lesson.
And what got me at the end of the day? Nothing ! Beside being so angry and FUCK-ed Up?
Enough of it, I cant continue talking

Not feeling recently. Having a headache whenever I use laptop for too long. =/

P.S I really hope I can endure more.

SsinyiI

2011-06-26T00:49:00.001+08:00

National Day Parade Combined Rehearsal 2 !!!
DANCE and DANCE. I just love dancing! HAHAHA.
The hosts is here today. Everyone was shouting for them. but guess still quite awkward without audiences.

Red Lions might not be those young handsome guys, but girls still crazy for them. They are handsome for their skill. Super Cool. :)

Total 5 songs, we learn the rest today. Still a bit confused about certain dance steps. But we able to do it. : )

Bubbles! You will know it when the times is right. :)

I'm sleepy and tired and my leg hurts! I'm getting tan from NDP. HAHA. That for sure.

This last saturday NDP:

Short update,
SsinyiI

2011-06-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

UT One come to an end . FOR NOW ! LOL
Programming UT One. One face is enough to explain what I feel. :/

Just nice and take the bus home with the Girls. I always grateful for the same timing of release.

I'm rather tired. Fully booked till Sunday. Next wed might also be going out. *Yawn*

I'm always looking for Saturday whenever is Thursday or Friday.
When is Monday or Tuesday, I look forward for Wednesday.
I guess that just keep my life goes on. This make me feel like the week pass a lot faster.

I'M SLEEPING EARLY TONIGHT.
Not going to stay over 12noon.

P.S I changed to blogger template. :)

SsinyiI

2011-06-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

不知怎么了。
现在的我是变的不同了吗？
是更清楚自己要的是什么，追求的是什么吗？
还是更明白 ‘朋友’ 这两个字代表着什么，意味着什么？
我只懂在我还没搞懂这两个字之前，我应该无法好好的面对我目前所谓的 ‘朋友’
我很清楚我的行为也许会伤了某些人。但我更怕在我面对而无法控制的时候，做出的事会比这些行为更可怕而伤人的更多更多。
在我理解和明白之前，我会先让自己离开这个圈圈。

有朋友对问我说，我是否有尝试接受。如果我说我尝试了，但还是没找到我要的答案？那又如何？我又能怎么办？等待答案的到来吗？
我没有胆量向任何人要求。现在的我只想有独自漂泊的勇气。
离开也许不是最好的解药，但未成不是一个不错的防腐剂。

冻结友情，冻结所有关于我们的关系。让一切先缓缓的进入冬眠。希望在觉醒的那一天，会有一个更好的明白。

写的时候，听着《阿福- 良人》

欣仪

2011-06-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

Okay let me see.

This week been rather slack for me. Beside the programming day. Totally madness for me. I can feel Butterflies flying in my stomach. Lucky is over.

Drawing Field Trip too. Walk around with Xuelin and end up at Mac drawing.

Now I'm reconsidering whether I should redraw my drawing. But I already spending so much time in it. :/

I learn to cherish friendship more.

But for those that is not true, i learn not to waste my time too.

First time at floating platform. This time the holding area is truly a bit too far. LOL. Oh, my team got chosen as Dancer. But we didn't really dance much. :/ Actually, we hope to dance more. But it get really shy when the cam film us. LOL. And somehow my team came out with a new cheer.

今天炸鸡排炸！

明天炸鸡排炸！

后天炸鸡排炸！

一起炸鸡排炸！

LOL! This get really ridiculous. But I like!

We kept waving to strangers. Another funny part.

AND I got to run for the formation! Isn't that far away as I think. So not bad!

I never fail to look forward for sat training. Beside NDP never fail to make me feeling happy. :)

Yisiong told me he is saying Happy Birthday from Beijing to Singapore. LOL. That mean he might appear at the video showcase. That cool !

Been meeting Dennis and Min Hao for like 3 times this week! LOL. Stay at the playground and CHILLL! LOL

Tml will be the start of another week. BE GOOD.

SsinyiI

2011-06-10T02:36:00.002+08:00

今天又要说些什么呢？

最近，我爱上了林俊杰《爱笑的眼睛》。这首歌在我脑里重复着。。。
轻快的旋律，搭配着歌词，应该唱出了很多人的心声吧。包括我的。。。
歌曲中的大部分歌词，我听了，超有感触的！《哈哈》

*我还不肯相信没有你我的笑更美丽*

决定离去的时候，以为我的脸上不再出现笑容。但时间也许真的让我康复了吧。想起以前的自己，真的太傻了吧！哈哈！

*折好了伤心明天起只和快乐出去*

套《醉后》一句话【在感情上我是输了，但至少在未来的日子里，我有选择的权利】
既然选择了放手，就能笑着的祝福吧

*离开你我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨淋湿的昨天删去(忘记)*

无法阻止的泪水就让它流吧。泪水就像暴风雨，哭过就好了。就让泪水删去过往的回忆。

*离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情我一定让自己让自己决定*

从新获得自由的笑容。再见了我曾经的爱。我会让自己过的更好。没了你，我还行。

*再见到你我一定让自己假装很坚定*

至少如果有一天我们再碰面，我能够笑着对你说：好久不见

郑欣仪

2011-06-09T02:26:00.001+08:00

本来没想要写博客的。但突然有感触。。。

当经历了太多次的离别。而使我太习惯离别的感觉或是太适应遗弃的失落？？

我好像渐渐的不再敢　给予的太多　和　要求的太多。　

怕给的多，变的多余

怕要的多，变的烦人

这一次我想再一次的相信　《我值得》

当你认为你给的多，你要求的也变的多。。。

因此，也许，是我太看得起自己了。。。

毕竟我没有那么完美。。。我只是我。。。

我应该警惕自己。　其实我没那么重要。。。也没那么被需要。。。

但我能不能不勇敢。。。　

因为要从心底认为自己不重要。。。　好难。。。好痛。。。

郑欣以

2011-06-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

愛喔愛

主唱：廖語晴 Linda

我不要這種冷漠　卻只有你依賴

你隨時對我關愛　全都被你主宰

因為被愛所以存在是上個世紀的對白

我要淘汰你的姿態純白的心不能夠壞

我不怕愛

陰天裡的眼光沒有放棄的期待綻放的精彩愛愛愛

I see a sign

勇敢地拼命愛讓太陽曬曬愛懂了才遇到愛

Oh baby,

愛喔愛喔愛喔愛喔愛fly fly fly 該愛了就愛

愛　喔愛 oh cry oh smile oh try ~ all life

全都是愛沒有倖免沒有重來我該愛就愛愛實現了愛

愛喔愛當愛走來喔愛我愛 (I can fly)

Recently, not many nice song come out.

This is one of it that I found really nice.

Most of the song[chinese] tend to be 'copying' / following the Korean style.

So finally one song that totally and completely different from the Korean style.

The song is also very nice. Now totally on my replay mode. (Y)(Y)(Y)

LISTEN TO IT MAN !

SsinyiI

2011-05-31T23:47:00.001+08:00

I partial-ed today. Meet Lex and girl, Steven and James. After they finish eating, I decided to take 169 to go home. When on the bus, I totally feel giddy and feel like vomiting. Wonder what happen. GIDDY ~ Slept my way and even went pass my stop that is suppose to be at Thomson. So I sat all the way to AMK hub.
Decided to go to visit my aunt. Taught my aunt english and accompany the children. Totally just sit there and teach. Giddiness follow me home.

Vomit-ed when I reach home. And after Mum making me drink that stupid sugarcane water. =.= SIAN!

Wonder if I will be able to wake up tml if My head still giddy.

漫长的车程，下着蒙蒙细雨，让我的思绪变的缓慢。

窗外的细雨仿佛替我流下了隐藏的泪水。乐观待人好像顺其自然的变成了我的保护色。

害怕了，委屈了，想要哭了，但怕没人给予安慰，更怕的是别人会对我有误解。当别人无法接受你的泪水，他们就会为你加入自己的想法。深怕他人的心也是如此的我宁愿是一个人忍着泪水。

忍着泪水虽然痛，但好比被别人误会来的好吧～如果可以选择笑着对人，何必哭呢？

SsinyiI

2011-05-30T23:30:00.001+08:00

Is Monday~
NDP was great. Fetch the girl dog from Tamp and brought her to NEX. The boy dog was kinda jealous when he saw that Tricia and I brought the girl dog. HAHHAS. Jealous sio ~

Technically, 2 More days of school and it will be Holiday. But I feel like giving Wed a miss. HAHHAAS. No harm not going anw. Is CST ~ I don't really feel like going. Is Holiday Mood for me. But tml Programming is a MUST to go. So, hope I can go though tml peacefully. =]
Still thinking if I should give Wed a miss. I need some rest, you know. HAHAHAS. [Who don't need]

Recently, this song has been in my replay list. <没那么爱他>
I personally like this part of the lyrics.
< 深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方 >
Kind of like sound encouraging to me. HAHAS.
In English:
Take a deep breath, Look at the sky.
The sky is broad, the world is big.
Happiness would definitely somewhere there.

我坚信幸福总会在某个角落等待我。
既然你不是，我不会强求。
谢谢你带给我美好的回忆。我会珍惜，我会感激。
分开的路也许困难，
但只要相信你会更好。
找到后，什么都变的不重要了。

SsinyiI

2011-05-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

Ho Ho Ho

Wed 25.05.11
Original Plan: Joslyn and I went to shopping first. Then meet Amanda for Lunch. Then pool while waiting for Tanjiamei to come.
In the end, Joslyn cannot make it. So become pure pool day.
But Tanjiamei cannot make it too, So become pure eat day for Amanda and I.
Ate PizzaHut. Been a long time since I ever step into PizzaHut after I left Guangyang. Pizzahut use to be my hangout place with my GY-ians. All the foods there hold certain level of memories. Starry Munchies, Garlic Bread, Curry Bake Rice and Drumplets ! Today just like a go back memory lane for Amanda and me.
Maybe find one day, I should gather some people and go back secondary school and eat the canteen food. Miss them lots. :)
Spend my evening watch Secret Garden. But I stop and start my revision on Computer System Technology. Problem Two is a long one~ I took quite awhile to understand.

Haven been feeling good for this few days. I'm down with Sore Throat. At first, it recovered. But eventually get worst after eating one bar of Mars. LOL. I know, I know is my fault for eating that. But I didn't know it will actually get that seriously. OPPS. LOL

Bro was away from home. He went for Sec 2 Camp. 3 Days 2 Night. I miss him. The house seem so quiet without him around even thunder is here.

Seriously, the thunder is SPECIALLY LOUD but don't seem any rain coming. :/

P.S 忍耐别人不代表你认同。只是懒得和别人一般见识。

SsinyiI

2011-05-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

Yes, my frequency of blogging went down a lot. Didn't find it a point to blog everyday. Not like something big happen everyday.

Allow me to rewind back my life. My memory getting worse.

Thursday 19.05.11

By right, it just a normal school day for me. The difference is that Tan Jia Mei and I left school at around the peek hour [5pm]. So eventually, we reach MRT at around 6pm. Being lazy, we decide to sit down to Jurong and sit back to Bishan. Sitting to the last stop would allow us to have seat to sit on the way back to Bishan.

Finally, we reach Jurong. Queue up outside the MRT's door. Got our seat happily.

After sitting for like 2-3 stop, we realize that this train service stop at YEW TEE !!! So we got down the train. Planned to wait for the next train.

The next train arrived. SUPER MANY PEOPLE. So, we decided to sit back to Jurong and back to Bishan.

This eventually took us 1.5hour before we even can reach Bishan. 0.0

Friday 20.05.11

I didn't go to school on that day. Not really feeling good. All thank to my dad.

But as promise, I meet up the girls after school. Dinner and buy drinks and photos spam-ed. This time round, Tan Jia Mei recommend us to try Gong Cha. Gong Cha's Milk Tea not really my type. I wont compare with other's. But if you are a tea-lover, I guess you would love Gong Cha. Their taste of their tea is really strong.

P.S Not uploading all. As I had uploaded into FB.

Saturday 21.05.11

Today suppose to be the last day of the world. But eventually, you can see I'm still here blogging at this hour. I'm not DEAD !!!

Went for NDP. Today learn about the 4 8-counts dance steps. Not bad. Quite HipHop. I was quite worried that they might teach us those quite [not-my-type] dance step. HEHE.

Went to Ochard with Tricia to have our lunch.

Back to NEX to bring BABY to go eat. DOG CAFE ~ Baby was ask-ed to be participating in a competition. For his beauty! LOL

Upcoming Events For Me:

I need to start studying for my UT !!!

I will start studying on Monday 23.05.11 !!!

[trying my best for it]

02 June - 03 June: Eileen Birthday Stay-over @Gerald's house.

03 June - 05 June: Wedding. (Y) Going Malaysia beforehand !

P.S I'm having a busy life. But I'm enjoying it. : ]

P.S What a long post!!!

SsinyiI

Amanda For You.wmv

2011-05-18T02:24:00.000+08:00

AMANDA (Y) <3

2011-05-18T00:20:00.001+08:00

最近，有朋友向我说她的朋友的事。
我觉得啊～很多时候，我们可以认识　很多人　但真正能被称为　朋友　的就很少。
有时候啊～是少的可怜

没有人是不自私的。同样的我，也是这样。
自己的朋友可以很轻易的被你自己当成笑柄，但当你听到别人对你的朋友有意或无意的中伤时，你就会自动的对此人产生恶意。
现在的我就是这样。

但放心，为了我的朋友，我不会对你怎样。
但请相信我，如果你再有任何无理取闹或是寧我朋友不堪的事，我不会保持我的笑脸。
我的笑脸只是为了那些懂的基本尊重的人和什么是善待他人的人存在的。

利用他人的忍耐来当跳板的人迟早会以为他人忍耐到了极限而摔得遍体鳞伤
对于这样的人，我对你只有一句话

请在他人失去耐心之前，好好的珍惜那份残留在你们之间所剩无几的友情。

亲爱的朋友：

无需为不懂的珍惜友情的人而感到无助。

你曾经为她打开你的心扉，接受她的人。现在不懂的珍惜的人也是她。

这种人只不过是在贱踏他人对她仅有的信任。

没有人必须承受不公的对待。每个人都有权利享有值得尊重的友情。

还有你对你自己要有多一点信心！！

每个人都有能够完成他人完成不到的事情。

无需为现在你无法完成的事而感到伤心或无助

只要你付出了你应该付出的努力，对的起你自己。

因为当你付出了，就没有人有权利去质疑你，唯独你自己。

人的自信来之于他给自己努力过而相信自己是值得的。

没有人没有卑微的想法。只不过相信自己已经努力过，而对自己能呈现的已经是最好的。

如果还是有人无法接受，就让他们怨恨到死吧～

无法接受他人是因为他们没有为了自己努力过。

就是因为没有为自己努力过，他们才能轻易的说出伤人的话～

希望你能够永远的大声的笑～

如果你累了，我会借你我的床

如果你哭了，我会把我的Tissue给你，就不用还了！

如果伤心了，我会逗你笑～《这我可在行了》

如果发生什么事，随时call我，tweet我，sms我！

24小时，为你！

SsinyiI

海豚灣戀人01

2011-05-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

Best ! I love this man! This 2 kid is genius!

张惠妹 - 你在看我吗 [明耀KTV] DVD

2011-05-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

超就没转贴歌曲了。

阿妹新专辑：你在看我吗？

2011-05-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

First NDP meet up at Tue. Location: SiMei Ite. Hopefully, they don't change my team. HEHE. Ah Ah Sio ~

As usual, my Wednesday spend with the girls at grassroot club playing pool.
I wonder would it continue for like every week.

As for today, Home based learning. :) Totally, slacking. HAHAHAS.

This timetable of mine seriously just one word to describe: SLACK !!

这些日子都过的好好哦～哈哈！
感觉上好像很忙,但是我却能忙里偷闲。
太闲的日子，对我来说又太无情。
太忙的日子，我又怕喘不过气。

这样的感觉真好～
充实的生活～

SsinyiI

2011-05-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

我真的很想知道她心里到底在想什么。

我常常在想，如果不是她，我们的生活也许会更好。

人不能去选择我们的父母同样的也不能去埋怨我们的祖先

你留下来的是无数的家产？还是还不清和搞不清的金钱纠纷？

说这些也毫无意义。

老爸要完成你的遗愿，可是如果你的愿望将是建立在我们的痛苦之上呢？

我不明白。

这是自私还是孝道？

生活本不是个问题，但却因为你，我们现在过的从来未有的生活。

我好想快点长大。脱离这一切。就因为我还小，你们就完全不考虑我们的看法。

一致认为你们是对的。

终有一天，我一定可一过上我要的生活。一个需要我的生活。

我不会怨恨，我会感激。感激你们让我了解，和更珍惜一切。

撑过夏天的炎热，

挨过冬天的冰冷，

忍受秋天的寒风，

你才会那样相望春天的温暖。

SsinyiI

2011-05-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging often.
Today is Wednesday. Another day of me and my no-school-day.
Went out with dears again.
Mac and pool. (Y).
I totally fall in love with pool.
At first, I tot I would never fall in love with it. [If I'm not wrong, _ don't like too]
But I don't care about _ anymore.

What else is in the week?
Mon = no school.
Went to Uncle house to visit him. He got in hosptial. But he is okay now.
Tue= Pool with the girls too.

I been playing pool for like continuous 2 day!?

Photo Ig tml. Hope is a good start for me. :) To get busy with some serious matters.
NDP. I'm going to miss the meeting. :( Two meeting happening in the same time.
Got to chose one only.

SsinyiI

2011-05-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm....
What happen recently?
Meet up with my babe, JOSLYN, on friday, together with Amanda and Zhengyi.
You wont know how I haven been meeting Joslyn. That like super long. Guess since like almost a year.
Know Joslyn since primary school. So you guess how long is that. 8 years?? If I just start counted from we got same clas sin Pri 5?
Whatever is it, we got good times spend on fri. :)

Saturday
I stay-ed at home. Went down for community party again.
The party atart at 8am!! Like darm early. Went down till 10plus. When I reach back home, I slept all the way till 3m. Super tired.
Sundary
Went to malaysia with dad and mum. Bro stay-ed home. Go dentist.

Seriously, cannot stand dad. He alway like to walk super fast and left mum and I at the back. So eventually, mum and I lost our way and couldn't find dad. And when we found him or he found us, he started nagging. Kept saying ' You know now what time anot? You all forever so slow'. I was so angry that I say ' I was trap at the passport there and all u know is keep walking and never look back and see if we did follow up.' When we finally reach the dentist, he smile to me and say ' there 2 dentist, which one u want?' I'm like WHAT ! We are suppose to be in cold war !? Then I whisper to my mum ' he must let me scold then he happy?'

But eventually, I cant stop laughing at my parent for their lost teeth. So happy ending. :)

Back home. Would be going to uncle's house tml. Heard he got an operation and now resting in his house. So going to visit him. And I shall play with his dogs. LOL

SsinyiI

2011-04-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

Okay this going to be a long post.

1. Rachel Birthday

2. Home Sweet Home with Amanda

3. ♥ Gay, embarrassing, retarded yet funny with Tanjiamei & Amanda

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY RACHEL ANG

MY BIG FAT ELEPHANT !!

Home Sweet Home with AMANDA.

She likes to take photo recently. LOL

Suppose to be a movie trip but in the end,

we change to our past time fav

KIM SAM LING ~ chicken rice.

I wonder if I spell it correctly.

KOI as the ending.

Rachel ang was sick.

So she is cannot make it here with us with the heaty food ~

I'm sleepy.

I love drawing lesson although get too bored at times.

SsinyiI

2011-04-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Holy ~~ Finally got to see all my faci and all the module.
Today module is Computer System Technology.
Guess what, I think programming is so much better and TOTALLY easier than THIS MODULE ~
Poor Year 1 for 2012, they might be getting this for their year1.

I'm like learning motherboard? Holy shit, what the hell is that?
I didn't even have any sense or brain cell for this ~
First time hearing of this, First time researching for this.
I know I might be idiot not knowing what the freaking is motherboard but even if I know it now, it is still killing me.

Guess I need to like work double hard on this module as compare to others. Total computer's part NOOB ~
That the worst that I ever think I would need to learn for my modules in RP's SIT ~ Who ask me to be in the school of IT ~

PROGRAMMING I LOVE YOU MUCH MORE THAN I LOVE COMPUTER SYSTEM TECHNOLOGY ~ [ THAT FOR SURE]

Sort of complaining for today post. LOL. Forgive me for that.

Ohh ~ I joining NDP. AGAIN~
HAHAHAS. I just love the feeling of having fun every sat ~
BLESS ME FOR HAVING GOOD HIGH TEAMMATES~

SsinyiI

2011-04-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

Went to Rachel's Birthday Chalet on 21 April till 23 April. BBQ for 2 night.
How heaty is that. LOL. Lucky I didn't get any sore throat.
I would upload the photos once the other upload-ed it.
I would let the photos do the talking.

UGH. Haven do the drawing's homework. How slack can I be. LOL

SsinyiI

2011-04-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

Haven been blogging since Mon.
Been busy this few days. Getting home late and sleep late.
Drawing module. Not bad. Is like ending of the week yet I'm just had only see my classmate for like 2 days? LOL To be exact is like only a less than a day if count by hour.

Taken on like Sunday? LOL.

Taken yesterday with TJM at mac. LOL. Enjoying MacFlurry. I love it.

Taken today at Mac with Amanda. TJM took it for us.

Been craving for Mac for super long. During holiday, or in school, I hardly get chances to eat Mac. School doesn't have any fast food. So craving for fast food have been like surrounding me for super long. TEEHEE

It would be like programming tml. I seriously, scare of programming. My programming, I guess everyone know, totally SUCK in it. That would be even worst than the other module like Computer system technology. Hope someone can help me with it. UGH.

Been sleeping late recently.
Would be going to Rachel Birthday Chalet Party tml.
Happy Birthday in advance.

I tend to forget how happy am I with him around.
Letting go is the only way of forgetting.
The more u try the more u cant let go.
Since you cant, why not just let nature take its place?

SsinyiI

2011-04-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

New Class. New Classmate. Team with Wanni today. Module was great. Videos. But I'm still quite nervous during ppt. I wasn't suppose to do ppt, so I'm actually watching videos. But last min add my part in. LOL.

Tml will be drawing. I somehow look forward to it.
Wonder how would it be like.

SsinyiI

2011-04-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

Woke up quite late today. Second last day of holiday. Hmm...
I would miss it. Holiday, suddenly I feel that I need you. LOL

Love this. HEHE. But I prefer sour. I shall refill with sour skittles after I finish this.

Out tmr for awhile.

SsinyiI

2011-04-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

Went to 5th Aunt house. Mum want to ask Granny and Aunt to come over and stay over. But in the end, they didn't follow us back. Granny is sick. If I'm not wrong, they going back at sat. So that Granny can visit the doctor.

Yihong went to NYP. YH and me like totally opp. I went to his side to study, he came over to my side to study.

ZiKang is in sg. I didn't even know if I didn't go today. I heard he is here for work and also studies. I wonder if he is home yet. Didn't get to see him today.

Yisiong still in beijing. His work seem to be very slack. He can still chat to me even though he is working. How slack can he be. And he 'suan' me. I threaten him that I would dig for his secret since his bro and him is not at home. But was able to guess that I wont really go do it. HAHA.

He even tell me how nice is the food there. How cheap and how big the serving can it be. I tell him say he going to be SO FAT when he come back. And he so going to wear XL shirt !!!! Or even XXXXXXLLLLL !! HAHAHAS

My Heart. 我的心事

这个假期会是我最难忘的吧！这个期间想了很多。多的让我有点应付不来。最近的我迷恋上了在晚上听疗伤歌曲。我不懂为何我会突然那么喜欢夜晚的宁静。是因为夜晚的宁静给我安全感吗？还是因为夜晚里，我是一个人的？一个人去静静的聆听自己心里真真的想法与感觉？

很都时候，因为太忙碌或是世界的诱惑太多，我们很常会忘了自己真真想要得到和真真能让自己快乐的是什么。唯有从新了解自己与聆听自己的心声，你才能找回那个真真的自己。

爱情又是无奈的人生考题。往往伤我们最深的却又让我们笑得最开心的就是它。

其实我们未必一定要拥有爱，我们才会能感觉到那种爱的感觉。很多时候，成全也可以很幸福。能够看到他的幸福也是一种满足。

无论如何，从新开始。

I would be me. That is it.

SsinyiI